Today was my last day at my job. After working as a software developer for almost 11 years (6+ years at HBK in Dallas and 4+ years at National Instruments in Austin before that), I’m hanging up my hat for the corporate world. For now, at least. The move was something I’ve been considering for awhile now as I’ve lost some of my passion for software development over the past year or so and the long 10-hour workdays didn’t align with the work/life balance that I wanted to have. Buying a house, gettng married, having a baby — my priorities in life have changed and I’m not the same person as I was back then who actually enjoyed spending night and day hacking away at a computer.
In less than 2 months, Dylan will be turning 2 and looking back I feel like I’ve missed out on being a mommy to this sweet little boy. In the 2-3 hours that I spend with him after work, I know I’m already tired/stressed/hungry and Dylan is only getting the scraps of whatever’s left of me by the end of the day. It just didn’t seem fair. Spending so much time at work was making me resent my job. And when I experimented with cutting back on my hours for awhile, I just couldn’t get enough work done to keep up and it was frustrating to say the least. And so, 2 weeks ago today, I put in my resignation.
I’m not sure what my next move will be. To be honest, I’m not sure if I’m cut out for the stay-at-home mom thing, but I do know that I want to spend more time at home with Dylan. I’m really lucky that our current financial situation is stable enough so that I can have some time to figure it out. The plan is to start by trying out the SAHM / blog on-the-side gig and see how I like it. I’m not quite sure what to expect going into to this full time… Will taking care of him day in / day out be too much for me? Will I be ok without the adult interaction that I get every day at work? Will I still crave something technically challenging to do? I’m toying around with starting my own business and while I have a few ideas, nothing is solidified yet. The idea of working for myself really resonates with me so we’ll see where that goes! I actually have started meeting with a career counselor (first session was last week) and took a couple assessment tests this past weekend to determine where my interests lie and what types of opportunities might suit me best. I’m excited for our follow-up meeting this week and hoping to maybe see what other possibilities are out there that maybe I hadn’t even considered before. Let’s see!
As you can imagine, this is a pretty scary time for me right now. I’ve always been one to have a plan and a sense of direction for where I wanted my life to go. But, I’ve learned that life doesn’t always progress in a straight line and it’s ok to hit some speed bumps and detours along the way. Having so much uncertainty in my life is unsettling for me, but I’m taking advantage of this time as a mental break from the corporate world at the very least and using it to recharge and figure out what’s next. Maybe I’ll love being a SAHM or maybe I’ll go back into the corporate world in a different field or maybe I’ll start my own business. Either way, in the short term I’m really looking forward to spending more time with Dylan and see this little man grow up. My career has always been important to me so I’m also glad that I have some breathing room to try something new. This new chapter of my life is daunting and exhilarating all at once. Thank you so much for reading and I’m so glad you’re here to share the journey with me!
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